別人的故事 . . .

看到近日家庭中一新加入的姐妹去大陸做睪丸摘除手術的事, 在現今先進醫學連盲腸、扁桃腺也不會隨便去割除, 在中國大陸卻可以如此輕易去摘除健康的睪丸, 這些醫生醫德真不可思議 . . .

但看著這些自願的自殘、自虐行為, 自己卻衹是迷罔不以, 連想到這家庭貼切的 ts 的變性問題, 該去指責? 該去勸解? 該給予同情? 該祝福支持? 但至終還是緘默, 有點不知所措, 或是不够詳細資料去作判斷, 每個個案有不同的背景, 眾多虛擬難辨的網絡討論 ... 種種自圓解釋, 終還是別人的故事, 不明就理, 少管點閒事 . . .

就如坐在舒適的沙發中看dvd, 再怪誕奇異的故事, 看完至多也不過是一時沉重的心情, 到底是別人的故事 . . .

是自己老成了? 熱心冷卻了? 感情硬化了? 還是看了太多別人的故事?

"The Adventures of Priscilla..", Drag Queen, CD and etc

去library借dvd, 原本為找 "The Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert", "Boys Don't Cry", 網上介紹的幾套有關 ts 的電影**, 意外卻愛上了那隨手執到的 Om Shanti Om . 看完 Om Shanti Om. 再看 Priscilla, 一部澳洲Drag Queen 的電影, 同樣是帶著胡鬧、超現實, 以歌舞為題材, 看後心情卻沉重得很 . . .

故事: 三個 Drag Queen 結伴駕駛部大巴(名為Priscilla)跨越澳洲沙漠去 Outback 的 Alice Spring 表演 Drag Show, 延途的一些遭遇, 從中敘述每個主角的歷程心思 . . . 很受異端人仕歡迎的一部cult movie.
[ DRAG - DRess As Girl ...]

三個主角: Bernadette - Terence Stamp (Star Wars 中演 General Zod 那個) 演年邁的 ts, 硬板滄桑的面容, 穿著軟弱的女服, 悲嘆尋找人生的歸宿 . . .

Tick - Hugo Weaving (後來演 The Matrix 中的Agent Smith, 戴黑超黑衣的硬板面空, 印象深刻) 演個中年的gay, 沉重內疚那類, 曾結過婚有個兒子在 Alice Spring 那邊, 這旅程是他暗中想補償過去與對"親人"、對自己的無奈心結的解脫

Adam - Guy Pearce (L.A.Confidential內與Russell Crowe, Kevin Spacey 演性格警探拍擋) 演的是典型、誇張、flamboyant 那類gay, 代表還年青還能胡混的時侯, 以自己邊緣人的一點自我意態, 酗酒招搖, 最後還是靠成熟的車友去解救...

三個格格不入大男人式性格演員扮的 Drac Queen, 浪蕩地烏合一起於一部舊bus闖進空曠寂莫的沙漠路上, 和著Abba等 的舊歌, 繽紛誇張的服置 ('94 Best Costume Design Oscar), 那 Drac show 卻是異常的熱鬧、艷麗、湊合, 稱著延路的景色, 竟稱托得格外驚駭特異 (核突?)



80-90年代, 美國、澳洲西方跨性別文化大部份還是一種誇張的 Drag Show, 絕對誇耀的Drag Queen 總是走在 Gay Pride Parade 前端, 是"人妖"的寫實、是開放? 是自謔式的解脫? . . . 自己在這異地要面對的是與這種誇張怪誕的行為去認同, 感到恐駭難過 -- 自己會穿成這樣, 以如此心態衣妝, come-out 於這 parade 前嗎?

要不是那種濃妝豔抹性感得可怕的Drac Queen, 要麽就那種电視中極度誇張譏謔的女性動作的gay, 生活在這種環境意識中, 對自己的cd行為慾念、心態, 是種難究的 contradiction . . .

看完 Priscilla, 心情沉重, 複雜的自我、過去的印照, 想寫寫不出那般情結, 祇有去重温"Om Shanti Om", 沉醉那熱鬧繽紛中的超現賓, brain reset, 忘卻煩惱 . . .

(重新編輯幾次, 仍是亂七八糟, 唉. . . 不過也算是一個記錄、介紹罷 . . .)

"The Adventures of Priscilla Queen of the Desert"

1994 103 min
directed by Stephan Elliot

Terence Stamp, Hugo Weaving, Guy Pearce




** 幾部以 transgender 為題材的電影: (from www.superlimininal.com)

Soap, En (2006) Tranny slice-of-life movie. Touching love between a transsexual woman and a genetic woman both floundering and helping each other.

Transamerica (2005) Feliclity Huffman gives an Oscar-worthy performance of a transwoman reconciling her past on the eve of her final surgery.

Wild Side (2004) Transsexual actor Stéphanie Michelini gives an extremely intimate portrayal of some of the joys and difficulties of being transgendered.

Beautiful Boxer (2003) True story of the public transition of a Thai boxer.

Normal (2003) Reasonably realistic story of a man transitioning within marriage.

Badge, The (2002) Mysterious death of a transsexual woman. Somewhat educational look at what it means to be transgendered in America.

Cockettes, The (2002) Good documentary on a early San Francisco drag phenomenon.

Venus Boyz (2002) A fascenating glimpse into the worlds of drag kings and female-to-male transsexuals.

Hedwig and the Angry Inch (2001) By far my favorite TG movie

Princesa (2001) Extremely realistic look at the life of a typical transsexual sex worker. Respectfully shows that being non-op is an acceptable choice.

Southern Comfort (2001) Excellent documentary on transsexual lives and relationships featuring a beautiful relationship between an MTF and a FTM.

Wonder Boys (2000) Contains a transgender minor character as the girlfriend of the character played by Robert Downey Jr. Notable in that her TG status doesn't become an issue or a joke.

Better Than Chocolate (1999) Nice, little story with a transgender character who's just another character.

Boys Don't Cry (1999) Very big and excellent biography of FTM transgender Brandon Teena.

Flawless (1999) Realistic story underscores the common humanity of a drag queen as discovered by a redneck character played by Robert DeNiro.

All About My Mother (Todo sobre mi madre) (1999) Just a fun movie involving a family member who has transitioned.

Ma vie en rose (1997) A touching story about a feminine boy who resists societal conditioning to be masculine.

Different for Girls (1996) A story of deep friendship.

To Wong Foo, Thanks for Everything, Julie Newmar (1995) Drag queen road movie. Not very deep but who can resist watching Wesley Snipes and Patrick Swayze in drag!

Wigstock: The Movie (1995) Penetrating documentary into the lives of drag queens.

Adventures of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert, The (1994) A classic road movie with non-classic travelers.

M. Butterfly (1993) An amazingly good film.

Crying Game, The (1992) Love among the trannies.

Just Like a Woman (1992) Realistic look at some of the personal problems experienced by transgenders.

Orlando (1992) A rather boring movie IMHO, but main character experiences life from both sides and is therefore notable.

Prelude to a Kiss (1992) Another movie where people experience life from both sides, but this one is fun, sensitive, and romantic.

Switch (1991) Another died-and-sent-back-to-earth-fix-mistakes movie but with a twist: He's got to do it in a woman's body. Very funny.

Rocky Horror Picture Show, The (1975) Classic cult rock musical. Completely replaced by Hedwig (IMO) but lots of fun and great music.

I Want What I Want (1972) A very early look at the subject of sex-change. Poor movie and completely unrealistic but interesting historically.

Myra Breckinridge (1970) Main character changes her sex to exact revenge. Movie techniques are far ahead of their time.

Om Shanti Om

OM SHANTI OM



a Farah Khan film
"Om Shanti Om"

2007
162 min


ShanRukh Khan . Deepika Padukone . Arjun Rampal



剛看過幾期前明報周刋MPW中介紹的Bollywood電影, 在Slum Dog Millionaire 前從未結觸過印度電影, 好奇看到圖書館中一小堆印度電影dvd, 借了個封面最花綠那盤, "Om Shanti Om" 嘗試吓.

回家看完又看, 看了好幾遍了, 驚嘆那種超現實的歌舞、色彩、熱鬧, 怪怪的情節, 160多分鍾(好長但不膩)暢快的節奏, 不斷的驚喜, 忽然而來不問其由跳出來的歌舞、帶點不可思議的情節的變奏 ; 歌舞劇、喜劇、悲劇、懸殊、新舊、愛情、胡鬧集一身, 實是近年看過最精采、稀奇好玩的电影.

膚淺老套的情節, 卻有光怪陸離70年代的懷舊、迷幻, 配上劇情半路旋轉輪迴, 把前世今生混淆一起, 忽不然又是大跳歌舞一番, 找一大堆印度大明星一起跳, 半場來個慶功party, 以為算是結局了, 卻來個Phantom of Opera般的轉場景大變奏, 終場又再跳典型Bollywood大結局全體舞. 片子一氣呵成, 坐了半天看完還不盡興, 好戲連場. 很久沒有被電影如此放懷開心過了.

祇需眼晴看, 聽熱鬧抒情音樂, 完全不用腦的娛樂, 比80年代的香港电影更精釆、有型. 看來要去這裏不少印度人的小商店去找找dvd了.

女主角Deepika Padukone 處女作, 美極了...


p.s. 這 blog 也該有點平常生活的另一面, 孤寂星期日的意外驚喜 . . .

花樣年華

網上朋友要看小如的真相, 問那怪怪地神秘地頭像代表甚麽 . . .

是矇矓迷罔花花草草的組合, 從某角度看來, 還滿可觀地, 假作花樣的年華, 眨間的美奐, 巧合的現象、裝飾 . . . 或也衹是花花草草簡陋的掩蔽、假裝.

花, 還擁有雌雄雙性, 完美地自我交配, 卻還要嬌艷地招蜂引蝶, 想交流, 要誘惑.

花, 是性的一種象徵, 是美的代表, 是生命的精華, 本質卻是可憐地薄弱, 等待即來的凋謝.

花, 自身短暫的存在, 卻傳流了千萬年的掙扎、演化 . . .衹是滄海一粟, 還是盡情地艷麗罷 . . .

還遐想、痴情那蝴蝶的蛻變.

還實在衹是自我陶醉, 其實不過是一堆野花雜草的組合, 掩飾不可見人的真相. . .